fishboy 🍒

hii um theres 2 new posts up on my pic blog @fishvein

(ones a bodycheck the other is sh)

send me asks pls about literally anything im so bored

guys i really wanna cut but i know i cant because i have ab a month until prom and need to be more careful about my sh.. gotta get dress alterations and shoe try ons and ik i need to let my thighs heal atp because its a risk otherwise.. but that also means i cant cut up my arms either 💔💔

unfortunately for me i washed my cuts off in the bath just now and put them back under the water and my leg now feels as if i have lit it on fire

mmmmeeeeee hi guys this was last night

unfortunately mental illness entails me and my partner who also does sh have to be the same level of sick at the same time or i'll suffer severe adverse mental effects and fall back into my savior complex

thats kinda why im back on tumblr in the first place, if we arent sharing our sh with eachother and essentially being pro sh to eachother i'll go absolutely insane because i wont be able to handle it properly otherwise, if shes not recovering i essentially cant either..

when i see my follower count drop by 3 and just know they got termed... </3

rip beloved mooties...

new pics blog up like.. again.. @fishvein

i cut some like rlly thin styros the other night so i posted those

when i wanna cut her initials but i unironically dont know if i can use her last name initial for this

"hey babe wtf do you want me to actually use as ur last name initial sorry yeah i was trying to cut myself but i need to make sure you like ur own initials.. yeah sorry" ahh attempt

sh recov / harm reduction tips for those of us who are in the trenches and may be considering recov or trying to get there one day

⭐️ some people can't just throw away their sh tools and that's okay, but what i suggest is if you don't already to keep them in a hard to get to place so that you can reduce how often you may try to sh

⭐️ try to limit how often you relapse but dont put too much pressure on yourself because it may stress you out worse, id suggest slowly relapsing less by spacing them out more over time.

example: every day -> every other day -> twice a week -> once a week.. etc you get the point, if you cant stop cold turkey then try to reduce how frequently you sh because its just like any other addiction out there.

⭐️ keep in mind it takes about 3 weeks to make a habit, when going fully clean its really rough for those first few weeks but it wont stay that way, that isnt to say you wont have some bad days but it wont be every second.

⭐️ avoid buying new sh tools and new blades, if you plan to reduce or recover then stick with what you have so that you wont automatically have a new tool to hurt yourself with.

⭐️ if you burn yourself or you sh for pain specifically i suggest using (skin safe!) hot wax because it still hurts like hell when it hits the skin. usually these are used for like kink purposes but that also makes it easier to find in a way.

⭐️ for people who cut or need to see blood, some alternatives that work are using red food dye and applying it to something thats pointed but cant actually cut you and dragging it across your skin. another thing thats out there that provides both pain and blood without injury are sh pens! its hard to find these due to the internet censoring things however on platforms like tiktok using slight censorship in search like "self hrm recovery pen" will likely bring you to some results that could help.

⭐️ if you're broke like me or a minor etc and cant purchase tools online to help, id suggest using household items like thumbtacks for harm reduction. something that personally helps me is actually making fake wounds that are like.. actually fake and not real. to do this without any professional products use thin layers of liquid glue as your base and shape it like a wound, and use paint / makeup / whatever you've got. if you have sensitive skin this will probably make you itchy or poses a risk for a skin reaction so do be wary of that. when removing it should just peel right off as long as its fully dry, just be sure to wash the area afterwards.

⭐️ other reduction tips are the typical things people will say to do, surround yourself with friends and safe people if you can. surround yourself with safe items and things that make you feel comfortable and avoid triggers to your best ability. if you seriously are trying to recover please delete tumblr as consuming sh content will trigger you back into it fast.

if anyone has questions about specific circumstances or situations my ask box is open <3

recovery isnt easy but i really hope this helps somebody out there who may be considering getting better.

can i call my moots on here fishpeople... u guys are all like a colony of little goldfish and i love u all

im upset im so fucking upset and she wont reply to a fucking word ive said and take accountability for lying to me about being in this community again.

all of this and she wont give me the response i deserve. a fucking explanation. literally NOTHING.

hey guys im back, my partner lied to me about quitting and im really really fucking upset with her because i tried for no reason.

im recovering, peace out guys it was fun

-fishboy

guys u should send me asks im bored