hi, fka 9999888. this blog is one of my many life archives

please do NOT recommend me media by white people. i know enough to last me for the remainder of my time

non-exhaustive list of things i enjoy: nature, green, orange, blue, red, purple, media, notes, horror, nature, stories, games, music, fun things, funny stuff, people, furniture, nature, the melodramatic, the unserious, everything in between, above, and below, spectrums, absolutes

Right Now Im Smart For My Age But Im Thinking Of Also Becoming Cool

look man, i dont know how to say this but like. i would love to use you as a stepping-stone to my own perfect vision of the future. do you like me back

Blackout Poem Made of Disability Benefits Applications and Denial Letters:

[Image ID: A blackout poem. The edges of the black are straight and rectilinear. I will indicate breaks in the line using the slash symbol /. Some of the excerpts include boxes where you could draw a check mark. I will indicate these by writing (box). The poem goes

Answer every question. / Please tell us if you want us to return them to you. / Select the heaviest weight lifted. / Using fingers to touch, / (Box) One hand (Box) Both hands / Using hands to seize, (Box) One hand (Box) Both hands / reduction / refusal / Termination / Penalty / You can give us more facts to add to your file. / You do not meet with the person who decides your case. / Notice of Decision — Unfavorable / Disabled worker’s name / Date given when disability began / Date of death. /end ID] 

The final three lines are from denial of benefits paperwork for workers who died before the end of the mandatory five month waiting period. How many of those deaths are connected to poverty? I don't know, but I can guess.

…psychiatry assumes that society does not cause distress in biologically normal people, who are considered biologically normal at least in part because they are economically productive. This assumption permits the conclusion that if a person is distressed to the point of unproductivity, it is because that person—not society—is abnormal. Thus, psychiatry’s commitment to biological essentialism not only masks the role of the constructed sociopolitical environment in creating distress but depoliticizes it by characterizing that allegedly irrational distress as induced by biological abnormality.

– Kiera Lyons, “The Neurodiversity Paradigm and Abolition of Psychiatric Incarceration” (2023)

In an ideal world pinkpantheress is being mentored by Kelela Sophie and roisin murphy at some kind of mountainside experimental dance music dojo and they make her carry jugs of water back up to the dojo from the river at the base of the mountain in between song craft training sessions until she re-emerges with enough power to save the world from charli xcx

readings: essays & articles

• reassuring ghosts and haunted houses
• fish recorded singing dawn chorus on reefs just like birds
• what people around the world dream about
• poet and philosopher david whyte on anger, forgiveness, and what maturity really means
• oranges are orange, salmon are salmon
• how memories persist where bodies and even brains do not
• the avant-garde musical legacy of the moomins
• the weight of our living: on hope, fire escapes, and visible desperation
• disturbed minds and disruptive bodies
• what is better ー a happy life or a meaningful one?
• after my dad died, i started sending him emails. months later, someone wrote me back
• on the igbo art of storytelling
• what the caves are trying to tell us
• promethean beasts — how animal uses of fire help illuminate human pyrocognition
• the art of loving and losing female friends
• on memorizing poetry
• the ecological imagination of hayao miyazaki
• reading in the age of constant distraction
• holly warburton illustrates tender moments of love and light
• romancing the fig: what one fruit can tell us about love, life and human civilization
• mystery and birds: 5 ways to practice poetry
• can a plant remember? this one seems to — here's the evidence
• why female cannibals frighten and fascinate
• when you give a tree an email adress
• fear not — horror movies build community and emotional resilience

Everybody always calls me a silly goose but never a handsome goose or clever goose...

it really is crazy how quickly people were willing to just let chatgpt do everything for them. i have never even tried it. brother i don't even know if it's just a website you go to or what. i do not know where chatgpt actually lives, because i can decide my own grocery list.