“Writing down your thoughts is both necessary and harmful. It leads to eccentricity, narcissism, preserves what should be let go. On the other hand, these notes intensify the inner life, which, left unexpressed, slips through your fingers. If only I could find a better kind of journal, humbler, one that would preserve the same thoughts, the same flesh of life, which is worth saving. Moreover the writer invents himself [or herself] as a character in this form. He shapes himself from the shards of the everyday, from the truth of that daily life. Which is also a truth not to be scorned.”

Anna Kamienska, from “In That Great River: A Notebook,” trans. Clare Kavanaugh, Poetry (June 2010)

one thing i find interesting about The Narrative is that (even though she was The Homecoming Queen) laura is never like... you know the 'trope'. how every dead young person supposedly Lit Up A Room. they just don't really fuck with that at all. and the thing is, i think from a certain angle, it's true of her --- for certain people, in certain settings, she could very much actually be that person. but when you talk to people who knew her [well] they're instead kind of like. sometimes when i was with laura i couldn't tell if i was having a bad trip or if she actually was just talking at me like some greek oracle. she stressed me out so bad. trying to describe her right now would give me a migraine the likes of which she would feel so incredibly proud

the reverend PREACHING HER FUNERAL was just like "laura always told me i talk too much. she questioned everything i ever said and most of the things i didn't. god bless. i will miss that crazy child. amen"

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