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First post. Hmmm. I suppose I'll say....

I hate binary terms because it forces me into a colonizers binary when my people have their own genders. I see no reason why I should be forced to abide by a colonial binary and it's rules when it doesn't even work for colonizers.

I've been told that this is the system we have so this is the system I have to work with but I was never told why queer colonizers are allowed to bend the binary and force tolerance for it, but those of us who have no desire to fit within it at all aren't allowed to break it entirely.

Yes my existence and adamant fight to identify as my gender is inconvenient for colonizer queer theories that insist a socially constructed system of oppression is necessary for their own gender to exist.

I don't care.

I'm my gender without the goverment telling me it's real because throughout history two spirits were never acknowledged at best and at worst they tried to erase us entirely. Even today there's very little written about us and even less often are we included by the wider queer community.

From what I can tell, the same is true for trans and other gender queer people under the colonial binary. So I see no reason why the system shouldn't be overhauled entirely.

I definitely don't see any reason why I should lend it anymore validity or power over queer and two spirit lives than it already has by Willingly conceding ground to it.

So yes i find most queer discourse absolutely ridiculous, racist, and colonial.

Seeing as how im on the receiving end of it so often and im told so often that my views are wrong or that my views align with some harmful group of colonizers, this is my blog to talk about it.

Im tired of being told that I'm somehow the problem and not the queerphobic leadership trying to kill us all.

I want people of all genders (regardless of how queer) to be free and liberated from the systems that oppress us. I'm sick of being told that wanting liberation above validation in an oppressive system is wrong.

These systems will never ever see us as worthy or valid. We've existed as long as humanity itself and somehow our oppressors are still passing laws to erase and kill us. For the last 5 years they've even reupped their efforts which has gotten worse under new leadership and not just in the USA either!

Our oppressors will never accept us, let alone tolerate us. Certainly not while colonizers are in charge.

If you don't see that, it's not me with the problem. It's not me who misunderstands. It's not me who's hoping for the impossible. It's not me who can't accept the facts. It's not me who is failing to understand the way oppressive systems work.

These systems need to come down and that won't happen when the majority of the queer community is still begging and grasping for crumbs of favor.

We are people. We deserve liberation. We deserve dignity. And it will not come from begging, bootlicking, or fighting amongst each other like dogs over scraps.

As a trans two spirit native who's disabled, brown, and jobless. I don't fucking care about who's the least or most privileged under a system i want to see crumble.

I care about my own liberation. I care that I'm not liberated.

And as long as my liberation is tied with yours, reader, I don't care who else you want to blame for my lack of it.

We all play our part. I'm sick of watching everyone argue about how big that part is.

Youre likely a colonizer or white or abled or etc. Something. By your own logic you very likely have a responsibility to deconstruct whatever privilege you have over me.

I don't care.

Because my liberation is tied with yours, my fight isn't any bigger or smaller than yours is.

They are one and the same.

And I refuse to leave my liberation in the hands of anyone but myself.

I'm not so sure why everyone else is so eager to do the opposite. Especially when it's being left in the hands of people you see as oppressors! Absolute nonsense to say "i won't work with men/ableds/white people as they alone have the responsibility to do the work earn my trust and free me." What?! You'd leave your freedom to the same people who profit from your oppression? And without any formal kind of organization with your allies?? How's that going.

I bet it's not great.

Which is exactly why I don't see value in acting like this kind of behavior, discourse, or "queer theory" is useful to me or anyone else.

If I keep leaving my liberation in the hands of colonizers acting like this it's clear even my great great great grandchildren would be no more free than I am today.

Roe V Wade falling was more than evidence of that.

...how people on this site have managed to make me feel like im the one falling short of understanding my own identity, my own oppression, or how its works systemically is pure colonial gaslighting. Because all written out like this...

There's no fucking way I'm the problem.

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Im operating on roughly 3 hours of sleep right now but I'm very excited to get into this tomorrow finally.

Seems extremely good!!

March 4, 2023, an essay by Black transfeminist Nsámbu Za Suékama

"I see anti-transmasculinity as the wheels of a sort of Trojan Horse. What does that mean? Well, first, we have to define what anti-transmasculinity is.

See, anti-transmasculinity is about the oppression and discrimination faced by trans men. It also includes masculine people more broadly who are not cisgender. This means that those people whose manhood and masculinity are positioned as "going beyond" the biological categories that society typically uses to define gender: these are the targets of anti-transmasculinity."

"But even as TME struggles escape the mainstream imagination, they persist, and are often both fueling and being fueled by the war on trans women and transfeminine people. Nothing makes this clearer than in how a Western binary system triangulates that war with Anti-transmasculinity. This is why I say that Anti-transmasculinity is a Trojan horse for Transmisogyny."

"To overcome the fortification of decolonization/class struggle that materialist transfeminism provides, the Trojan Horse arrives: a racial-class paternalism. [...] In the midst of this, transmisogyny decorates the air waves, the media, the tongues of the citizenry, with trans womanhood made the hypervisible quintessence of a violence and threat to the nation because of how transfeminism unveils the basis of the Family-Marital nexus, the network of the household and gendered labor divisions, the patriarchy and all its imbrication of dominant (colonial and neocolonial) material/power relations. To protect the latter from the former, then, racial-class paternalism must begin misgendering trans men and transmascs. If transmisogynoir is the fulcrum of the West’s patriarchal warfare, anti-transmasculinity is the wheels of the West’s racial-class paternalism, still a form of warfare but not as visible and very secretive about its inner workings.

Racial-class paternalism will typically acknowledge the existence of sexual violence, but only as a means of controlling women, of painting racial/ethnic others as rapists, of accusing queer/trans people as a whole of preying on children, and upholding the Nuclear Family and Marriage as institutions.

Racial-class paternalism showed up during the AIDS epidemic as a means of characterizing bisexuals as a disease ridden threat to marriages; it showed up during Jim Crow in the lynching campaigns that were foisted into Black communities by white fascists through false rape accusations. When misogynistic straight men are speculated to be secretly gay: this is a symptom of racial-class paternalism too insofar as the construction of gendered victimhood is framed in contradistinction to forms of embodiment that are stereotypically pushed outside the Patriarchal nexus, the marital-familial configuration, etc. There are biases against polyamory and against sex education which also rely on a paternalistic framing of gendered victimhood juxtaposed against that which is positioned as incongruent with the normative rhythms of the "good ole boy network." Desirability politics, and how it anchors transphobic, colorist, ableist, and fatphobic “preferences” (that shape not just romantic and sexual relations, but how people approach friendships and familial ties): any critiques thereof get framed as on par with violation of consent/boundaries under racial-class paternalism. Even cishet men, if they are not in accordance to the standard of the Breadwinner and ideal masculinity, is met with gender paternalism by the hegemonic Nexus, framed either as a problem for national security, public safety, and the stasis of the family, etc or a victim of “emasculation” by women, especially if he is non-white and particularly if he is Black. And in the TERF movement, that paternalism takes on a uniquely pernicious form, for they have begun to project so-called "femaleness" onto trans men and transmasculine folks and other subjects of anti-transmasculinity. This, too, is a form of gender paternalism: one that characerizes trans men as "victims" of an evil, satanic "agenda" led by a trans women and transfeminine people.

Many trans men and masculine people are abused by the false notion of innate victimhood projected against them. Paternalism will also invert the position of those subjected to anti-transmasculinity within its logics of victim versus violator. In those instances, the act of being a man or being masculine is framed as in and of itself "treachery" to the so-called "female" sex, thus a collaboration with the violent so-called "male" sex.

There are occasions where some TERFs will try to use this inverted paternalism to frame trans women, transfems, and TMA people as the new victims, with trans men, transmasculine folks, and other subjects of anti-transmasculinity as innately violent to us. This paternalism towards us as transfems, in contradistinction to transmascs, is still a racial-class project, and a facet of warfare in the imbrication of the dominant system. And just as paternalism towards transmascs limits their gender self-determination, paternalism towards transfems as a "protection" of us from trans men works against us too. See now how a Trojan horse is apparent with its dangerous though secret contents! And the wheels that help it roll its way into our struggle is anti-transmasculinity.

Paternalism, and its dualist fearmongering about gendered violence and victimhood, is only convincing because of how human societies evolve the social forms that “nex” our embodiment within local material/power relations.

I “stretch” the Engels hypothesis in a Fanonian sense, which traces the development of the Family-Marital nexus from the demise of the clan under bourgeois society. Through Fanon’s proclamation that “alongside phylogeny and ontogeny stand sociogeny,” I overcome bioreduction, and can attend more complex processes of constructive development at a structural level, which the truncated view in Western Marxism fails to do.

Thus, I propose a different hypothesis: a range of subsistence patterns, modes of social organization & production, and ways of reckoning the continuity of a group, tribe, nation, clan, and more can be observed of human societies across the world, especially outside the West. As these relations evolve, there are internal dynamics to each society (endogenous forces), including as per Cabral’s “The Weapon of Theory”, patterns of ownership and level of productive forces, themselves emerging vis-a-vis the metabolic and inorganic conditions of human life, as also, as per Cedric Robinson’s “Black Marxism,” the cosmologies, the metaphysics, the consciousness of a people (which, while not bioreduced, are biologically potentiated, to use a Gouldian term)."

"We cannot be anachronistic and speak of all such manhoods and masculinities with modern notions like “trans” and “queer.” But through a Nexus hypothesis we can illuminate how these precolonial, ancestral, indigenous manhoods and masculinities constitute a range of embodied spandrels (including gender expansive ones): all consequences of the nature-nurture construction of those forms by which groups and individuals negotiate the endogenous and exogenous dynamics of their living, their conditions, their experience, their societies.

And this has implications for our capacity to apprehend the whole totality. Because, just as colonial ethnographer Richard F Burton saw masculine roles as “outside” the gendered embodiment he projected on the so-called Amazons of Dahomey, turning them into a ‘chief proof of Dahomé’s barbarian under-civilization’ (The Amazon Warrior Woman and the De/construction of Gendered Imperial Authority in Nineteenth Century Colonial Literature, Maeve E Adams),

"Stop posting transmisogyny" is an insane comment to leave on the article of a trans woman's experiences just because you don't like the way her internalized transmisogyny was displayed or whatever.

But sure, next time I'll find an article from an ideologically pure trans woman in the closet whos posted about her experience and who also completely deconstructed her transmisogyny so as not to upset fragile ecosystem people who demand and expect strict ideologically purity from all trans women who want their voices to have value.

"I support women wrongs"

Be so serious, yall can't even support a trans woman who's singular biggest crime thus far is internalized transmisogyny.