Hi guys. It’s been a while since I’ve posted because I’ve been dealing with some personal things. I will check my notifications as soon as I’m home tomorrow, but last night was my Eras Tour show (finally) and just I had to share it with you.

It was more special than I could have possibly imagined. Screaming along and dancing for three and a half hours was actually kind of therapeutic, in a way. Even though I went alone, I had the time of my life. I had amazing seats. Taylor was in a good mood. I got the surprise songs I wanted. The only thing that surprised me was how high her voice actually sounds life. I watched the movie and it definitely doesn’t do her live vocals justice.

And the performance? I was in awe the entire night. Sure, it was boiling when I got to the stadium (and my seats were on the side without the roof — the sun sets pretty late in Germany), but I actually made it out without sunburn or heatstroke.

I’m tired, my feet hurt and I’m definitely getting some post concert depression, but the experience was beyond worth it. 74k people inside and another 40k outside (there is a hill where the stadium is in Munich where people come to watch concerts from the outside but last night was probably a record). The lights, the people and the entire fucking atmosphere was magical. I wish I could thank Taylor personally because it truly meant the world to me what happened last night, even though it was just another work night for her. Truly, I needed it, and everyone who gets to go to the Eras Tour is beyond lucky (and those who watch the live streams should continue having fun because that’s what Taylor would want; sing and dance your heart out wherever because the memories aren’t just for those present at the show but everyone else watching one way or another). I compiled my favorite moments in a small video (I didn’t keep the original audio because it would have been too messy). I like to call it my Eras Tour memory recap. Feel free to watch it!

Thank you for reading all this. I’ll be back soon 🤍

Bestie the way i just saw this even though I was watching like this 👀 as Taylor got closer and closer to Munich because I couldn’t wait for you to experience this 😭 I was SO excited for you and I’m so happy you had an amazing time!

I kept thinking, “I hope she’s not getting sunburnt waiting in line and being in the sun for three and a half hours” AND IM SO HAPPY YOU WEREN’T 😭😭 i remember the last time you went to a concert and I was just hoping so hard you didnt get heatstroke or smth so I’m so glad you didn’t.

i saw all the people gathered on the hill which was so fucking cool like if I were Taylor I’d cry to see how many people came even without tickets, but I kept imagining I could sneak in with you 😭 idk if that’s kinda dumb, knowing you going alone kinda made me sad, but it made me sm happier to know you enjoyed it all 🖤🖤🖤

ALSO I CANT BELIEVE SHE PLAYED SOME OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITES AS SURPRISE SONGS??? I’d scream so fucking loud to hear FOTS x YAIL and ivy x CIWYW like I love those songs so much, I’m so glad you got to experience that 😍

Also your footage is amazing!!!! You did such a good job recording bc I know if I were there and trying to record, it would be so shaky, no one could see anything, but yours looks so beautiful bestie. I’d kill to see the TTPD set live and im so glad you got to see all of it!!!

Anyways, I’ve been thinking of you every week and hoping you’re doing okay bestie, I miss you and ilysm 🖤🖤🖤

THE ACOLYTE
1.06 | "Teach/Corrupt"

Kudos to The Acolyte's wardrobe department making Qimir look so skinny and unassuming in all of the long-sleeved baggy clothing before the reveal because Manny Jacinto looks NOTHING like that.

MANNY JACINTO
The Acolyte 1.06 "Teach / Corrupt"

Star Wars: The Acolyte – 1.05: "Night"

i love arm

the slight facial expression he does when she breaks eye contact.

So uhhh I'm alive everyone!!! I'm not sure if anyone cares at this point given my um very long writing hiatus (holy shit it's been like a year hasn't it) and dipping for like a month but I just wanted to let my mutuals and anyone who gaf know that I am indeed not dead yet.

I took a brief summer vacay and then my summer classes started and having been kicking. my. ass. Idk why I chose a literature class in the summer, like I don't even need this class to graduate but I guess I love to torture myself. I really shouldn't be complaining bc it isn't that hard, just a lot of busy work and writing essays in like a day and shit, but I have another class starting soon, so I'll probably be going under any time soon.

I probably won't be writing much anytime soon (i'm so sorry about that) since I'm already doing so much of that and not the enjoyable kind, but I'm aiming to get at least one fic out by the end of summer. Setting really loose goals for myself here lol (watch me not even make that one)

@farfromstrange bestie ive missed you sm and i just needed you to know i havent forgotten you and i've been thinking about you all the time and i read all your posts, i just havent found time to reply yet, and im so sorry I hope you aren't mad, but i hope hope hope you're okay girl, i love you <3

and @starfanatic im so sorry to leave you hanging 😭 i swear i wasnt abandoning you, I miss you and our lil convos all the time, and i hope you aren't mad at me either <3

Anyways thanks for listening to my yap session, I will shrivel back into my little hellhole of assignments now :)

Bestie, I’ve been so worried about you, I’m so glad you’re alive!! I figured you were working your ass off with school, but it’s good to have confirmation that you’re still hanging in there. And I know you can do it! I love you and I miss you but when you’re busy, you’re busy. Focus on yourself first 🫶🏻 (and I’m not gonna act like I haven’t been MIA for weeks at a time either and haven’t even managed to continue our private conversation LMAO so you’re good, bestie, I’m just glad to know you’re still there). Uni’s bombarding me with essays that need to be written too, so I get it. It’s not hard but it’s lots of work and it’s really just fucking exhausting 😭

I’ll be right here when you get the time to write something again, and I’ll be eating it up!! That’s a promise. I love you. I’m sending you hugs and you know you’re always on my mind, so I’m there with you. You’ve got this!

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not me literally straggling in two weeks later bc it’s the first breather I’ve had in a while (holy shit my skin is actually crying from the stress rn)😭 I’ve been worried about you too bestie! I keep thinking about you like “omg she must be so stressed with school rn” and then “omg twinsies” bc my brain is like…barely working right now

I have so much to tell you girl, so i can’t wait til we get back to our dms, but uh judging from the current state of things that’ll probably be a while for both of us lolll

anywaysss your hugs are like one of the only things keeping me going and I’m sending them right back at you because ik you need them so bad too rn <3 and between the two of us, I know you’re the one crushing those essays every time! I love you sm girlie and I’m manifesting that we’ll both get through these semesters with most of our sanity intact so we go back to our random ass messages bc those give me life 🖤🖤🖤